Squishzilla

Recently -like many other ace bloggers- I've been thinking about Squishes.

Yes, that's right- Squishes, the asexual version of a crush.

For me (and I think many other asexuals) a squish is like the fledgling stages of a crush, or rather, a crush that a younger person may have.

Now, I'm not saying that asexuals are immature (Well, I can be, but that was always going to happen, asexuality or not), but that a squish is like a crush without the sexual tension. Sure, you are ridiculously happy whenever your victim -ahem, object of your affections- does anything to acknowledge you, and it may result in some hardcore Facebook stalking just like a regular crush, but there isn't the desire to do more than hug, hold hands and generally be intimate in a non-sexual way.

Now, to me.

I'm currently 'Squishin' majorly on someone- so majorly that it has become, in fact, Squishzilla.

But I have a teensy problem. He isn't asexual. Quite the opposite in fact, and he wouldn't understand asexuality if it was explained to him.

So... Say even if I was sexual, I would have a 10% chance of getting together with him.

Well, I have a less than 0.1% chance of getting together with him the way things are.

People that think that because asexuals don't have to 'worry' about sex, their lives are automatically easier, but... It's definitely not the case.